Monthly Archives: December 2014
Posting on behalf of our brother- Suraj 🙂
It was on Oct 6th, 2014 that I had a terrible accident when I was cycling along with some friends from church. I injured both of my elbows and I was rushed to the hospital by my family members, where the doctor examined me and did some tests. He saw my test results and suggested that I put casts on my hands. He suggested that I had to take minimum of 4 weeks of bed rest.
But, the problem even bigger than my accident was that I was supposed to give my board exam after two days. I couldn’t believe with what just happened. I was already so frustrated. I mean it was my board exam of high school and I was already thinking about applying to colleges abroad. So, in my anxiety, I asked my mom to ring up in the college, explain the situation and ask whether they can allow a substitute for me to write in exam. The college informed “The British Council” about my situation. I was anxiously waiting for their reply. I was so broken when they responded me by saying that they cannot allow me to give exam at all, and that I’d have to reapply in the next session (which is after six months). Apparently, I thought my dreams had all shattered into pieces….No hope!!
On that night after returning from the hospital, my house was in turmoil. My parents were shouting at me for I went for cycling despite of their warning that I should stay at home and revise for the exam. I couldn’t sleep that night because of the pain I was having and also because I had to sleep upright placing both of my arms on my lap. I had to take couple of painkillers and I tell you what! It was one of the horrible experiences you can ever have.
Four weeks were just like forty weeks for me. I couldn’t go anywhere with those injured hands and none of my friends knew that I was in such a pathetic condition. It was recently that I finished “Foundation Course” classes and thought myself as a firm believer of Christ. But with one move of Satan, I started doubting God. My whole “firm believer” mentality changed into a loser mentality, as I felt that I had lost everything-my dream, my career.
I was questioning, “Why me, god?” The doubt was getting bigger and bigger. I was looking at my friends who were able to give their exam and finish their high school. I was disappointed in myself for wanting to go for cycling on that day and for ignoring my parents’ warning.
Although I was disappointed in myself and in God, he was not disappointed in me at all. Throughout my recovery period, God made me realize how much of talent I possess and how many people love me and are praying for me. My church folks kept visiting me and encouraging me. They were constantly praying for my recovery.
I was constantly praying to God to reveal me why he let this happen. One night, I found God speaking me through this verse, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6) After that, my restless heart found its peace. I felt like it was an assurance from God that he would always be by my side and that he would take me out of this mess. I was in peace, patiently waiting on god’s timing.
The day came when I had to go to hospital to take off my casts. I was excited, dreaming about what I could do after my casts were removed. I thought I’d be able to move my arms after I take the casts off but the real pain started when the doctor took them off and I now had to support my arms on my own. It took me few weeks to adjust my arms after going through some counseling and physiotherapy.
I was still unsure about what was going to happen next. I was still in confusion why would God let that happen. I would ask myself, “Is there any purpose of God behind this?”At times, I would pray, “God, why did you let this happen? What is your purpose behind this that I am not able to see or understand?”
I like this verse from the book of Romans where it says, “Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance.” [Romans 5:3 ESV] God uses sufferings to teach us patience like he did to Job. If you look into Job’s story, God allowed Satan to take Job’s possessions and beloved ones. Bible says having being suffered so much Job still did not sin from his lips. [Job 2:10 ESV] Later God restored Job with twice as much as he originally had. I believe that God wanted to teach me patience. I have decided not to worry myself anymore with what happened but to trust God and his plan for me. [Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV] Moreover, I have learned to cast my anxieties on god. Scripture in Philippians 4:6-7 says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made know to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” [ESV]
The problems can be worse than what I encountered but the question is “Are you putting your trust in God no matter what or are you going to lose joy in your life because of that problem?” It is kind of challenging but what we as a believer, a church or the body of Christ need to understand that God is with us and that he will strengthen us. He will never leave us alone. Like in Exodus 14:14 says, God will fight for us.
During the Christmas and New year season KIF will have the following events..
* Tue, 23 Dec. – Carol singing at RTC English Language Institute opp. British Embassy from 5pm-6pm.
* Wed, 24 Dec participate Christmas Eve at KICC Dhobighat at 6pm.
* Thurs, 25 Dec. Christmas Carol lead at KICC at 10am.
* Thurs, 25 Dec. Christmas party to Prisoners Kids & staffs at P.A. Nepal, Nayabazaar at after 4pm.